Introduction

As I write this section, it's been exactly 5 years since those two days before Christmas in 2000, when I last saw you and 3 years since I last made any major change to this web site.  So yes, it is the afternoon of Christams Eve 2005, you're 14 years old now, and it's about time I got around to filling in the missing gaps of these last three years.

It's been on my mind to do this update for some time, but somehow I never felt that I had that much to say, even though quite a lot has happened over this period.  However I think that there is enough now to make a new chapter and as you read through this, you will see that not only has my life moved on in a number of ways, but I have also been comforted to make some discoveries about you and your life, which has brought with it new issues for me.  But ultimately these discoveries have given me immense pleasure, renewed hope and a continuing belief that what I am doing with this site remains the best way for me to be contacted by you or Marie, as and when the time is right.

I really don't wish to dwell on this point too much, but I think that it's worth re-stating the other reason for creating this site.  We are all mortal and I am acutely aware that a time will arise when you will want to know something about me.  I hope and expect that I will still be around at that time and perhaps this site will be the key to you contacting me.  If however I am no longer here, I don't want you to be left in any doubt about my unstinting and unconditional love for you, my affection for your Mum and respect for your Dad. 

I continue to live in hope that one day, when the time is right, we will meet and perhaps enjoy a relationship on some level which compromises no-one, benefits everyone and allows the natural love which I have for you to be demonstrated.

Christmas 2005